why?...

never got around to watching LOST on tv, so started watching it on the internet a couple of days ago, after much prodding from my daughter... one of the things i like about it -- after watching no more than most of season 1, mind you (i realize things could change over the course of 6 seasons!) -- is that everything that happens seems to have a reason for happening...the strange things that take place seem to have a direct connection to things that have happened in the individuals' lives before the crash...

one of the most common questions in life seems to be, "why?"... we always want to know the answer to that one question in our lives...

some of the most profound epiphanies in my life happened when i allowed myself to uncover the answer to that question... and, not with the quick answer of blaming someone else... i'm talking about the "why" that goes deep into my own heart and mind... it is, at times, a frightening place to go... an always revealing place to go...

the thing is, there is always a "why" for every action we take as humans...

and only when we get brave enough to start excavating those deep places will we find what we're looking for in this life... only when we turn the searchlight on in our own hearts will we be able to make deep, lasting, transformational changes...

isn't that really what we want anyway?... transformation?...

it's easy to blame someone else, everyone else, anyone besides ourselves, but that doesn't bring change... change only occurs when we take a good, long look at ourselves and answer the questions that really hurt... why did i do that? why did i say that? why do i feel this way? why? why? why?

transformation is painful... change hurts... the searchlight is traumatic... it doesn't miss a thing... it reveals what we try to hide from everyone, from ourselves, from god... but, until we let it shine, happiness will be fleeting and joy will be non-existent...

in essence, we will remain...

LOST.



c2010 Lorenda Houston

scorching hot day in the desert...

thunderheads move in...

starts pouring rain!

can't get much better than that...


c2010 Lorenda Houston